In October of 2016 I quit my job with absolutely no back up plan. Not just any job, one of those cushy jobs with the 40 hours a week, 401k and 2 weeks paid vacation. It wasn't that I hated my job, I just wasn't happy. I wasn't happy with my life, my relationship or my job. Basically everything was just going to shit so I put in a two weeks notice and told them I found another job ( I didn't) then I did what any sane person would do and moved in with my parents and traveled for a couple months. I visited friends, I sat on the beach, cried sometimes and watched a lot of daytime television. I job searched in different states and spent that little bit of money in savings that I had. Looking back, it could have been disastrous but it somehow worked out and heres why.
It gave me some time to reflect on my life and what I wanted to get out of it. It gave me time to refocus on some relationships and figure out what was making me so unhappy. I have been in and out of the restaurant industry for all of my adult life and I am so grateful for my serving experience because it gives me an out when I have no where to turn. However, I would have never expected I would have spent the last year of my life still 'waiting tables.' That being said, I worked for one of the best restaurants in the entire world for the past year (maybe I am biased) but seriously, some of the best people, leaders and lessons have came out of my serving job. I truly believe everyone needs to serve once in their life because it will change the way you handle almost any situation. You meet a lot of people and learn to roll with the punches..and kicks... and basically it eats you alive and shows you that you are still walking on two (very sore) feet. Also the money is pretty sweet.
I have had a year to figure shit out and it took all of that and more to really feel like I was ready to jump back into a job I am scared of. I am scared to go back into a business job because I don't want to lose myself again. I don't want to punch the clock and wait for Saturday or drink away my weekends because I am miserable for the next week to come. I know the choice I've made is going to help me financially and in the long run but I hope it doesn't hurt my spirit. I am such a day dreamer and often get caught up wondering "what if" but I am eager to take this leap.
If I can give you one piece of advice from my short 25 years on earth is to keep leaping. Keep jumping and falling and flying and crashing until you find happiness. It was really hard for me to tell people that I went back into the service industry after 4 years of college and 2 years out in my field of work but I never felt unhappy. I never dreaded going into work or felt like I needed to self medicate to forget the week. I am forever grateful that I quit my job without any plans. Don't be embarrassed to fail or to fall short because that is where you will find happiness.
Sunday, March 25, 2018
Monday, February 5, 2018
You don't need to call me beautiful
Ok, listen up. All boys: stop doing this. I understand it's suppose to be a compliment but I am so tired of the "hey beautiful" text. The ones you send to every girl you find attractive. Do you know anything about me? Have you taken the time to actually get to know me to see that I like cats, traveling and yoga? Do you even care where I went to school or where I grew up? If not, then don't text me.
I don't want you to tell me I am beautiful. I want you to tell me what your favorite song is. I want to know that we have some things in common so maybe we can build a life together. Sometimes we see things so superficially and don't take the time to get to know the people surrounding us.
Perfection is not beautiful. Beauty is raw. I want to be beautiful for so many reasons but I don't want to be superficial. I want to be beautiful for my laugh, for my smile, for my ability to make people feel at ease.
I am here to tell you that clothes, makeup and hair are not what make you beautiful. Treat people with kindness and let your soul do the talking. Your true beauty will shine through.
I don't want you to tell me I am beautiful. I want you to tell me what your favorite song is. I want to know that we have some things in common so maybe we can build a life together. Sometimes we see things so superficially and don't take the time to get to know the people surrounding us.
Perfection is not beautiful. Beauty is raw. I want to be beautiful for so many reasons but I don't want to be superficial. I want to be beautiful for my laugh, for my smile, for my ability to make people feel at ease.
I am here to tell you that clothes, makeup and hair are not what make you beautiful. Treat people with kindness and let your soul do the talking. Your true beauty will shine through.
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